Does life need a title?
Things happen in nature and in life for many reasons. We can't always explain them or even question them. We just live our lives and let life go around us. Many people will try and manipulate time and life to have the outcomes come they way they want. But most times they end up in a worse position than where they started. For example, I was happy in my life for the most part. I had a girlfriend and life was going.... I can't say it was going well, or bad. It was just going. Then I met Michelle.... and she changed everything. She brought happiness back into my life. A happiness that I didn't think was possible to ever have again. Things are going so well with her. I am so blessed and gifted to have her in my life. I don't know what I would be doing or where I'd be if I hadn't have met her. She is incredible.
Another thing that has happened is that I am back in school. Yeah I know what you are thinking... "Ugh school really? Why on earth are you going back to school? You were crappy at it when you had to go. Why would you voluntarily go back?" Well for a couple reasons. One I want to better myself. I want to be the first person in my immediate family to have gone and graduated college. I want to be able to say I did it. I want better myself. I want to be better at my job. I want to climb the corporate ladder. Ok.... so there were more than a couple. But if you would please note none of them are for anyone else. They are all reason for me. But I have to say that one of the top reason for me to go to school is because last month I lost a very very good friend in a train accident. Tommy "Two Notch" Kenny was killed when his crew shuttle van was hit by a north bound grain train. I know ironic huh. A train engineer killed by a train. In a crew van. The one place that we as railroaders all agree is the most unsafe place for us to be. We are more worried about being in car accidents than in train wrecks. But it got me thinking. Do I want to be in the cab of a locomotive the rest of my working life? Do I want to put my life in someone elses' hands when I go to work for ever? I don't think I do. But the only way that I'll be able to get out of the "seat" and move up the chain is to get some college. So it is a means to an end. I don't like it, but hey it is what the "man" says I have to do. So I guess I'm doing it. I haven't gone to school in over 17 years. That is a long time to have never stepped foot in a class room. Yes I know that some of you are thinking that I have gone to Navy schools, and the schools for the railroad. But for some reason I don't see them as the same. So these first couple of classes are a royal pain my asses! (Hey I'm a poet!!) But as the article says that Paul, Michelle's dad sent me..... Lots of people could have said no and gave up. But they wouldn't be where they are today. They wouldn't be that person in history if they had given up. So I am gnot going to give up on anything. I know that there are times that I am going to say that I am going to give up. I will walk away pissed off and ready to throw things. But I am not going to give up. I am going to show to my kids that I can do it. I am going to practice what I preach....."If you put your mind to it, you CAN accomplish anything!" Thats me! I am going to accomplish my goals and dreams.
Now back to your normally scheduled program!
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Now playing: Lamb Of God - Hourglass
via FoxyTunes
Another thing that has happened is that I am back in school. Yeah I know what you are thinking... "Ugh school really? Why on earth are you going back to school? You were crappy at it when you had to go. Why would you voluntarily go back?" Well for a couple reasons. One I want to better myself. I want to be the first person in my immediate family to have gone and graduated college. I want to be able to say I did it. I want better myself. I want to be better at my job. I want to climb the corporate ladder. Ok.... so there were more than a couple. But if you would please note none of them are for anyone else. They are all reason for me. But I have to say that one of the top reason for me to go to school is because last month I lost a very very good friend in a train accident. Tommy "Two Notch" Kenny was killed when his crew shuttle van was hit by a north bound grain train. I know ironic huh. A train engineer killed by a train. In a crew van. The one place that we as railroaders all agree is the most unsafe place for us to be. We are more worried about being in car accidents than in train wrecks. But it got me thinking. Do I want to be in the cab of a locomotive the rest of my working life? Do I want to put my life in someone elses' hands when I go to work for ever? I don't think I do. But the only way that I'll be able to get out of the "seat" and move up the chain is to get some college. So it is a means to an end. I don't like it, but hey it is what the "man" says I have to do. So I guess I'm doing it. I haven't gone to school in over 17 years. That is a long time to have never stepped foot in a class room. Yes I know that some of you are thinking that I have gone to Navy schools, and the schools for the railroad. But for some reason I don't see them as the same. So these first couple of classes are a royal pain my asses! (Hey I'm a poet!!) But as the article says that Paul, Michelle's dad sent me..... Lots of people could have said no and gave up. But they wouldn't be where they are today. They wouldn't be that person in history if they had given up. So I am gnot going to give up on anything. I know that there are times that I am going to say that I am going to give up. I will walk away pissed off and ready to throw things. But I am not going to give up. I am going to show to my kids that I can do it. I am going to practice what I preach....."If you put your mind to it, you CAN accomplish anything!" Thats me! I am going to accomplish my goals and dreams.
Now back to your normally scheduled program!
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Now playing: Lamb Of God - Hourglass
via FoxyTunes
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