PTSD? Where did this come from?
PTSD... What in the hell? Where did you come from? Have you been here all along? Why now? Why am I dealing with this? Why is no one else going through this? It’s hard to say what my most distressing traumatic event is. Let a lone what caused it to occur. The catalyst could have been a number of things. Seeing death, blood, and mistrust. These events have caused me to be overly cautious during a lot of evolution's with my jobs outside of the the military. I don’t trust a lot of people. I even at time find it hard to trust my wife of 10 years. I think she is plotting something against me. I think the most people around me are only around me because they have ulterior motives. I have to be in control. Not so much because I’m a Leo. But because if I’m in control, I can control every aspect of the evolution about to take place. I have no self esteem. The nightmares. The ringing. The loneliness. ---------------- Now playing: Lamb Of God - Embers