PTSD? Where did this come from?

PTSD...  What in the hell?  Where did you come from?  Have you been here all along?  Why now?  Why am I dealing with this? Why is no one else going through this?

It’s hard to say what my most distressing traumatic event is.  Let a lone what caused it to occur.  The catalyst could have been a number of things.  Seeing death, blood, and mistrust.  These events have caused me to be overly cautious during a lot of evolution's with my jobs outside of the the military.  I don’t trust a lot of people.  I even at time find it hard to trust my wife of 10 years.  I think she is plotting something against me.  I think the most people around me are only around me because they have ulterior motives.  

I have to be in control.  Not so much because I’m a Leo.  But because if I’m in control, I can control every aspect of the evolution about to take place.

I have no self esteem. 

The nightmares.

The ringing.  

The loneliness.

 

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