Ahhhhh
So I have to say this has been a good week, and yet at the very same time it has been a crappy week. I got up Tuesday morning to go on a field trip with my son, which was an absolute blast. Was shown a new park to take the kids to. Watched some scuba divers bring up the biggest starfish I have ever seen. It was nuts how big these things were. If you know the band God Smack one of the star fish was shaped almost exactly like the God Smack sun symbol. It was awesome. We just had a very very good day.
Then came Wednesday. The only day of the week I was not looking forward to. That was the day that Amber had to say goodbye to one of her kids. Bridgette was a cat. And not just any cat. She was and is Princess Fatass. I first met Bridgette a few years ago, and when I first saw her, the name Princess Fatass just seemed fitting. You see when I met her she was 22lbs. Yup you read it right. A 22lb cat. But I have to say for her begin so big she as still very agile. She could still jump like normal and on the rare occasion aka opening of a can of food, she would run. But overall she was the sweetest cat I ever had the pleasure of knowing. Well a few months ago Bridgette went into the vet to get checked on because somethings were not acting right. A biopsy was done and it was discovered that Bridgette had cancer. So the Decision was made by Amber to do the surgery to try and get it all out. Well Dr. G' was able to get it all, but some of the cancer actually broke off and got into her blood stream. I was there the day that Dr. G' (Michelle) told Amber that because it was spreading it was only a matter of time. And I have to say other than a few lil problems here and there, she held on for almost 6 months. That was six months more than an oncologist was giving. A few weeks ago Amber and Michelle talked and came to the conclusion that it was about time. Before Bridgette was uncomfortable and in pain. So think one of the hardest things a person can do had to be done. The date was set for the euthanasia June 16th..... I told amber I would go with her, but before I left I told her that you need to leave anything at home that you would need to bring back. As I drover over to her house I didn't really think of anything. But when I got to her door, I must've stood there for about 3-4 minutes. 3-4 minutes that seemed like eternity. I was about to knock on the door of my best friend to pick her and her cat up. But it would only be me and Amber coming back. I felt at that moment like an absolute piece of shit. I felt like the grim reaper. As I stood there I sent Michelle a text saying... WHY? Why do I feel like the grim reaper? Tell me I shouldn't feel like that. I know I shouldn't have felt like that... but I did. I went into the house and saw Bridgette sitting on the bed. And for the first time in a few month Bridgette was taken out of her E-collar and out of her t-shirts. You could see in her eyes she was tired. Ambers other two cats watched on. And you could tell they knew. We walked out of the house went to the car, where Amber rolled down the window. You could tell that Bridgette was feeling a lil' free. She had the wind in her hair, and she was breathing fresh air, seeing the sights. During he drive to the office Michelle wrote me back saying...." You are not the grim reaper. Don't keep that thought at all. This is the the right thing to do and the right time to do it. Its my honor to do this the last great gift I can give..."
We arrived at the Michelle's office and walked into a room. It was there that Bridgette's fight came to an end. She didn't fight it, she growled a lil, but hell who wouldn't when they get a big needle stuck in the arm. This was the first time I had ever seen anything die. My original plan was not to be in the room when it happened. But I felt compelled to be in there for Amber. But I told myself I wasn't going to cry not even a lil. But I also knew that if I saw Michelle the vet cry it would be over for me. Luckily she didn't. She held her composure very well. I have to personally thank Michelle at this time. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing this for Amber.
In looking back at this entire experience. Amber and I both have gained a new friend in Michelle. She is an incredible woman and a brilliant doctor. Amber has gained a new job at the same vet clinic, and a new out look on her life. She now has direction where she was lost before. But also for every ending there is a beginning.... a new chapter begins.
Here is to the next chapter......
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Now playing: Gary Allan - Life Ain't Always Beautiful
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Then came Wednesday. The only day of the week I was not looking forward to. That was the day that Amber had to say goodbye to one of her kids. Bridgette was a cat. And not just any cat. She was and is Princess Fatass. I first met Bridgette a few years ago, and when I first saw her, the name Princess Fatass just seemed fitting. You see when I met her she was 22lbs. Yup you read it right. A 22lb cat. But I have to say for her begin so big she as still very agile. She could still jump like normal and on the rare occasion aka opening of a can of food, she would run. But overall she was the sweetest cat I ever had the pleasure of knowing. Well a few months ago Bridgette went into the vet to get checked on because somethings were not acting right. A biopsy was done and it was discovered that Bridgette had cancer. So the Decision was made by Amber to do the surgery to try and get it all out. Well Dr. G' was able to get it all, but some of the cancer actually broke off and got into her blood stream. I was there the day that Dr. G' (Michelle) told Amber that because it was spreading it was only a matter of time. And I have to say other than a few lil problems here and there, she held on for almost 6 months. That was six months more than an oncologist was giving. A few weeks ago Amber and Michelle talked and came to the conclusion that it was about time. Before Bridgette was uncomfortable and in pain. So think one of the hardest things a person can do had to be done. The date was set for the euthanasia June 16th..... I told amber I would go with her, but before I left I told her that you need to leave anything at home that you would need to bring back. As I drover over to her house I didn't really think of anything. But when I got to her door, I must've stood there for about 3-4 minutes. 3-4 minutes that seemed like eternity. I was about to knock on the door of my best friend to pick her and her cat up. But it would only be me and Amber coming back. I felt at that moment like an absolute piece of shit. I felt like the grim reaper. As I stood there I sent Michelle a text saying... WHY? Why do I feel like the grim reaper? Tell me I shouldn't feel like that. I know I shouldn't have felt like that... but I did. I went into the house and saw Bridgette sitting on the bed. And for the first time in a few month Bridgette was taken out of her E-collar and out of her t-shirts. You could see in her eyes she was tired. Ambers other two cats watched on. And you could tell they knew. We walked out of the house went to the car, where Amber rolled down the window. You could tell that Bridgette was feeling a lil' free. She had the wind in her hair, and she was breathing fresh air, seeing the sights. During he drive to the office Michelle wrote me back saying...." You are not the grim reaper. Don't keep that thought at all. This is the the right thing to do and the right time to do it. Its my honor to do this the last great gift I can give..."
We arrived at the Michelle's office and walked into a room. It was there that Bridgette's fight came to an end. She didn't fight it, she growled a lil, but hell who wouldn't when they get a big needle stuck in the arm. This was the first time I had ever seen anything die. My original plan was not to be in the room when it happened. But I felt compelled to be in there for Amber. But I told myself I wasn't going to cry not even a lil. But I also knew that if I saw Michelle the vet cry it would be over for me. Luckily she didn't. She held her composure very well. I have to personally thank Michelle at this time. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing this for Amber.
In looking back at this entire experience. Amber and I both have gained a new friend in Michelle. She is an incredible woman and a brilliant doctor. Amber has gained a new job at the same vet clinic, and a new out look on her life. She now has direction where she was lost before. But also for every ending there is a beginning.... a new chapter begins.
Here is to the next chapter......
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Now playing: Gary Allan - Life Ain't Always Beautiful
via FoxyTunes
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